Today has been a roller-coaster! I was super stoked that I had lost at this morning’s weigh in – 297.4. I am officially out of the 300’s! So the morning obviously started off with a bang. I had a very productive day at work, albeit a bit boring. All in all it was a pretty awesome Tuesday, which I’m not used to because I hate Tuesday.
Then I got home. At first I felt fine, but after I sat for a while I felt a random sense of melancholy wash over me. I sat there, feeling like everything that I was doing was never going to be enough. I was always going to be big and there was nothing I could do about it. Before I knew it I was lashing out at Cliff (luckily I”m married to the most amazing man I’ve ever met so he comforted me rather than snapping back) and balled up on the couch crying.
All this on a day when I LOST weight!
Sometimes I have no idea what I would do without my husband. Instead of letting me give in and wallow in my self pity, he spent the next 15 minutes reminding me of all the awesome things I had done in the past month. Going geocaching once a week, exercising 3-5 times a week, hitting my 30 day mark on MFP, and losing almost 8 pounds. He reminded me that we are a team and we’re winning. Every single day that we make smart choices we improve our odds of having more time together in the future. Every day that we exercise we get closer to fending off heart disease and Diabetes.
So instead of indulging in a large blizzard, I put on the headphones, went to the shed, and took out the lawn mower. Now, not only do I feel 1,000 times better (but very, very, very sore) but my lawn looks great. I push mowed the front, back, and sides without stopping for the first time. The total on my pedometer was 2.26 miles.
And I must have said five times today, “I’m not working out, I’m taking a break.”
Today was the first time that I can recall that I’ve ever chosen physical activity to alleviate my emotional “turmoil.” Hopefully I will be able to look back on today and remind myself of that for future outbursts. It’s becoming increasingly easier to actually look forward to working out now that I have goals that I want to hit. Tonight I think I’m going to outline a few and see how it goes:
- Complete a 2 mile hiking trail before the end of the year
- Finish C25K on the elliptical
- Incorporate weight training 1-2 x week before the end of the year
- Do a Zumba dance without stopping