Today I really came to the realization that I’m determined to lose this weight. I’m more determined than I’ve ever been about anything in my entire life. I’ve been stagnant for almost a month, but I refuse to let that get me down. I know what I’ve been doing wrong and I know what I need to do to correct it. It’s time to take charge of my life and get serious about my body.
That’s not to say that I haven’t been working hard so far, but I know that I’m not giving it my all. I’ve been sneaking in excuses to eat poorly and to skip exercising. I’ve continued to count my calories and fit in at least three 45 minute sessions of exercise a week, but I know I can do more.
The first thing that I need to do is be 100% honest with my calorie counting. If I drink half of a 20 oz. PowerAde, then I should log those 55 calories and not think to myself “I’m sure I’m 55 calories off on something else in my favor.” If I add parmesan cheese to my pizza, then I need to log those 25 calories. Maybe one day I’ll be able to relax a little and eat more intuitively, but that time is not now.
Fortunately, Cliff has committed to working out five days a week (and has stuck with it for 2 months now!) and since we carpool that means that I also have to work out five days a week. I am so incredibly lucky to be going through all this with someone that is just as (if not more so) determined to change our lives as I am.
I’ve already made a few changes and I’m looking forward to going to the grocery this week so that I can stock up on some new recipes. I’ve tried several new things over the past month or so and I can’t wait to keep exploring healthier options for us rather than just repeating the same food we’ve been eating for months. I can feel myself starting to get burned out on the same four meals over and over. It’s nice to be able to still eat foods that we like while we’re losing weight (thanks My Fitness Pal and exercise!) but there are so many other meals out there that I’m sure are more delicious and more filling than 3-Cheese Totino’s and cucumbers. I refuse for this change to just be another “diet” where I eventually get tired of eating the same thing over and over or forcing myself to live on water and yogurt.
I’ve started following a fantastic weight loss blog called Runs for Cookies and she has some amazing suggestions and ideas about eating what you want when you want, but only in moderation. This keeps you from feeling deprived and helps curb the urge the binge (which I have a huge problem with). I can’t wait to try some of her recipes! Katie (the site owner) is truly an inspiration and I plan to keep following her through her maintenance story as well.
Outside of the lifestyle update, I’ve also had a pretty good break through at work. This month was my first month working on my own call queue (I’m a Managed Care Claim Collector for a healthcare auditing firm) and I just found out today that I’m the first collector that has met our revenue goal of $1M/month. It does feel nice to know that my skills from my previous job weren’t just a fluke and it seems like I have, at least, a decent intelligence level. J
In addition to that good news, Cliff and I are also planning on heading back to the gorge this weekend. We haven’t been since we weighed our lowest almost 3 years ago (265 for me and 416 for him). We had a blast last time and I’m sure this trip will be just as awesome. I’m hoping to sneak in some Geocaching and hopefully lots of pretty pictures of the leaves changing. It will definitely be a nice place to get some activity outside of the gym or our basement. Today’s picture is from our last trip. I can’t wait to be that size again!
“Some people succeed because they are destined but most because they are determined.” ~ unknown