Month: February 2014

Day 190 – Ups and Downs

Today has been just that…up and down.  I woke up this morning I thought for sure that I had reached 262.  I mean it was only 2 pounds, and I was averaging a 1.8 pounds lost even through my hardest weeks.  I had really busted my butt this week and I was really hoping for a reward for my efforts.

Was I rewarded?


Not even a little.  Not even one single, solitary ounce.

For a brief moment I thought I was going to lose it.  Visions of throwing the scale through my window and then settling into my recliner with a pint of Ben and Jerry’s were dangerously close to becoming a reality.  I closed my eyes and repeated, “It wasn’t a gain.  Think about the big picture.  You’ve lost 110 pounds.  You’re bound to have bad weeks.”

It didn’t help.

Lucky for me I have an amazing and supportive husband who was able to bring me out of my horrible funk.  He spent the entire day praising the work we’ve done so far and talking about all the things we can do now that we couldn’t do six months ago.  After a while I started to feel better.

Then the office ordered Spinelli’s Pizza…and our 30 day challenge ended yesterday, did I mention that?  What horrible timing!

I thought for sure I would lose it then.  The smell was just…just…

Well, it was fucking horrible if you want to know the truth.

Instead of ravaging the pizza, I decided to just get up and walk away.  Cliff and I went to lunch on the second floor and by the time I got back, the craving was gone.  Another possible breakdown thwarted!  At lunch, we decided to do another 30 day challenge since this one had gone so well.  We really learned a lot about our willpower and how to make better choices if we’re short on time.  When you don’t have Subway there when you’re running late for class, you better come up with some good alternatives.

About three months ago, Cliff decided that he wanted to see how many days, in a row, he could work out.  He made it all the way to 21 days.  Now we’ve decided that our next challenge is going to be exercising for (at least) 30 minutes a day, every day, for 30 days.  We’re counting yesterday (hey, we all need a little boost sometimes) so today was day two.  I’ve decided that through the week I’m going to do my runs on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays and the elliptical/arc trainer on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  On the weekends I’m going to try my hand at some weight lifting.

Today I got on the elliptical for the first time in three weeks and I was amazed at the difference.  I was able to do the entire workout on level 10 and even bumped it up to level 15 several times.  I also kept my heart rate over 150 for the entire time (except the warm up and cool down, obviously).  It was one of the best workouts that I’ve had so far.  Tomorrow is the first day of Week 3 on my C25K training, which means two 3 minute sprints…

I’m terrified, but also interested in whether or not I’ll be able to do it.  I guess we’ll see!  J

So, all in all the day ended on a pretty great note.  I didn’t give in to temptation, I started a new challenge instead of giving up, and I ended the day with a killer workout.  Maybe I really do have a handle on this healthy living deal.

Day 190“A dream doesn’t become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.” ~ Colin Powell 


Day 187 – Time to kick it up a notch

Wow, what a busy week!  Work has been even busier than usual, especially now that I’ve got several projects to work on.  I’m so ready for a short week next week.  I’m off on Friday so that I can run a few errands – Remmi’s stitches come out, the taxes are due on the cars, and I have a ton of homework to work on.  My plan is to have all of my responsible stuff finished before Cliff gets off, so that I have the entire weekend to do whatever I want (I.E. finish my craft room).

Our 30-day no restaurant challenge is over on Wednesday.  We’re in the home stretch!  I can’t believe we’ve actually gone (almost) 30 days without eating a single meal from a restaurant.  However, I will admit that I dreamed about bacon and cream cheese grits last night.

So much has happened this week that I don’t even know where to start.  I guess I’ll start with all of the firsts that have happened to me this week.

1.  Had my first running experience outside.

I had a ton to do Saturday, but I also didn’t want to get up at 5AM in order to get to the gym before starting my day.  I knew that if I didn’t get my run in early, then it probably wasn’t going to happen.  I looked at the temperature and saw that it was already over 40° and decided that I was going to just pull the trigger and do my run outside.  I got dressed and went outside and let my Forerunner locate satellites for the first time.  It was awesome for about the first three minutes.  The air was crisp, but not cold.  My music was blaring in my ears and I was completely and totally…alone.

Once I rounded the second corner of our court (our house sits on the edge of an almost perfect circle at the back of our neighborhood that equals about 1/3 of a mile around) I knew that I had made a terrible mistake.  I had forgotten about the huge dip in the back of the road and the hill was going to be right towards the last 2 minutes of my warm-up walk.  This meant that my heart rate was already 148 before my first sprint even started.

After I came around the end of the circle, I decided to just do the strip in front of my house, back and forth (which was, thankfully, flat).  However, that first hill set the whole tone for the rest of the training session.  Plus, running on pavement with wind is NOT the same as running on a treadmill in a climate control building.  Someone could have told me that the pavement doesn’t constantly move beneath my feet when I start running…

I couldn’t finish my next to last running sprint, but decided to keep walking until I got my time in, even though I quit the app and will have to repeat the run tomorrow.  I was still pretty happy with my results, considering it was the first time I had ever run/walked outside.  I PR on my first mile with a time of 16:27!

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 2.       I joined a fitness group!

A friend of mine recently became a coach for Team Beach Body and had a sale on her challenge packs.  After talking to her about being my coach and also joining her other (local) group, FitNation, I decided to just do it and join.

And by joining, I mean agreeing to do P90X3…

Which will be here this week…

Which means, starting next Monday, I’ll be getting up at 5AM every morning and doing P90X 3 (or all 6, perhaps?) days a week.

In theory.

More on how well I stick to that later. 

Even with the overwhelming terror that I feel whenever I think about turning that DVD on, I am actually really excited.  The amount of support that I’ve already encountered on the Facebook page is so amazing.  I’m incredibly happy to be part of a group of people that understand what I’m going through and how hard it can be.  I love being able to share my accomplishments without feeling like people are thinking, “I really wish this bitch would talk about something other than calories and the best average heart rate to maintain in order to burn calories.” 

3.      I signed up for my first race!

The group I joined (FitNation) is running a 3K called the Shamrock Shuffle in March and invited me to join them.  I registered Friday night!  I don’t think that I’ll be able to run it by then (which is totally fine with me, my original goal of running a 5K still stands) but there are a couple of other team members that will be close to my pace so I’m not worried about holding anyone back.  I’ll be signing up for my second race within 48 hours of signing up for my first.  I also got my VIP invite for the Color Run! I’m going to order the tickets tomorrow morning.  Even though I’m excited about the 3K, my heart really lies with the Color Run in June.  My Dad is coming up and running it with me and I’ve gotten an outpouring of love from friends who also want to run it with me.  So far, 4-5 of my friends have asked if they would run it with me (at my pace even!).  I think it would be so much fun to have a big group at an event like that.  I know it would definitely ease my nerves!

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4.       I sang karaoke!

Several of my friends from my old job have a girl’s night out about once a month at a local karaoke bar.  I hadn’t been able to make it to the previous two so I was bound and determined to go last night.  It didn’t start until 9 and I had been going constantly since 7AM.  Needless to say, I was not very energetic by the time we got to the bar.  There’s just something about being around that group of friends that wakes me right up.  I had promised myself that I would leave no later than 11 and before I knew it, it was 10:45.  As a farewell gift one of my buddies sang “Don’t Stop Believing” (we share a mutual obsession with Journey) for me and I was, literally, dragged up on stage.  I managed to wrestle away and make it back to my seat, but then something told me to just say f%$# it and go back up there.  Before I could stop myself, I got up, ran back up to the stage and started playing air guitar with reckless abandonment.  The funny part…I was 100% sober.

It was amazing…and incredibly embarrassing.  More than anything I’m just happy that I faced my fear and lived through it.

So, it looks like it’s time for me to start a new chapter in my weight loss journey.

Time to start doing some research!


“You’ve got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it. It’s called perseverance.”  ~Lee Iacocca