For those of you that don’t know, I’ve been dealing with a leg injury for about a year now. I’ve had scan after scan, two rounds of physical therapy, and months and months of no running at all. (Pause to stare, angrily, at the mangled muscles that used to be a hip flexor, calf, and hamstring).
To say my fitness level has suffered would be the understatement of the year.
For months I made excuse after excuse for my weight slowly creeping up when, in reality, I had just wrapped myself up in running so much that I refused to try any other form of exercise. After all that hard work to lose the weight and to find a physical activity that I actually enjoyed…just for it to be taken away…was a pretty tough blow.
Needless to say, that’s the primary reason for my absence from the blog. I’m just not a public Debbie Downer. I just couldn’t bring myself to post because, well…I kind of felt like a failure. I gained 30 pounds (all in my gut – how does that even happen??) I had no running stats to report, and I just wasn’t thrilled with myself as a whole. (Don’t get me started on all the hormones from IVF and some other health issues that I won’t discuss here (I’m fine though!).
Rather than concentrate on the fact that I’ve still maintained a loss of 170 pounds, I let myself fall into that pass/fail mentality for a really long time.
Fortunately, I seem to be over feeling sorry for myself and finally decided that it’s not too late to decide how this story ends.
The odds of us losing 500 pounds were so slim once upon a time…but we did it. The thought of running a mile (let alone FIVE ENTIRE MILES without stopping) was laughable…but we did it.
Right now the thought of ever getting my fitness level back or getting to my goal weight seems impossible, but I know I’m capable of it.
I was finally able to find a new love for exercise when we bought our bikes (more on that to come). I was dying for that “I am a total bad-ass Super-hero” feeling again, and I found it with cycling. I also fell in love with yoga (ok, ok – I might have a little crush on Adriene, but come on! Who doesn’t?)
We’ve definitely come too far to turn back now.
I happened upon my old blog this morning, way back when we started in 2013 and I was using blogger rather than our own site, and I found this quote:
“Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” – Carl Bard
True Fact, Carl, True Fact.