Month: January 2014

Day 181 – Try, try, again

I think today might have officially gotten me addicted to running.  I felt amazing when I was finished and CRUSHED Week 2 – Day 2 of the Couch to 5K program.  I actually had to repeat the first day almost 3 times, but I eeked out the last 90 second sprint while holding onto the bars of the treadmill.  Today, I wanted to smack that 90 second sprint in the face.  It was, by far, the most rewarding workout to date and has me really looking forward to the next run this week.  I’ve decided that I’m going to get back into a more well-rounded weekly routine so I’ll be doing a light cardio on Wednesday and my last run on Friday and then I’ll go to running Monday, Wednesday, and Friday of next week.

I’m really hoping for a good weigh-in this week.  I’m only 3 pounds away from my lowest (recorded) weight as an adult.  I think I might have been a bit smaller when I first moved to Louisville when I was 18, but I really have no idea.  I started packing on the weight as soon as I moved here and before I knew it I was knocking on 400’s door.  The smallest I ever remember being was 262 in September of 2010 during the first Biggest Loser competition at work.

So clooossse.

So, I’ve been following this blog and her passion for peanut butter has turned out to be contagious.  I had recently decided to try different nut butter every time I’ve gone to the grocery and this weekend I found THE.BEST.PEANUT.BUTTER.EVER.

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I’ve eaten almost half the bottle since Sunday morning (yes, I’ve counted every single calorie – I just found a way to fit it into every snack and every meal since Sunday).   It is absolutely delightful.  I had never even thought of adding peanut butter to ice cream until I read it on Katie’s blog and then tried it last night.  Man, am I glad I didn’t discover that during my fatty Mcfat days!  All I needed was one more thing to completely gorge myself with.

I am beyond tired of this cold weather.  I had originally intended to start my running journey outside, but Mother Nature put a quick end to that.  Sometimes I feel like I’m never going to be warm again.  Today’s high was 15 degrees.

15 Degrees.

Perhaps it was the FIFTY %$&*@#$ DEGREE DAY WE HAD ON SUNDAY!

I hate this state.

Luckily, I have amazing co-workers.  This is the second scarf that one of my co-workers has made for me.

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You might remember me mentioning my new addiction to scarves. I didn’t think to snap a shot of me wearing this one because I was too busy trying to pump myself up for today’s run (time well spent again!)

Still no book.  🙁 Hopefully tomorrow.

However, I did finish a free Kindle book called Running with Curves by Jill Angie.  It had quite a bit of information for running when you’re on the heavier side.  I especially liked her explanation of our “inner mean girl.”  Some parts made it feel like she was reading my mind and it felt great to read that someone else had the same issues that I’m having.  It was a nice, quick read but has made me crave my Runner’s World book even more!  Maybe I’ll find another free Kindle book to pass the time until it gets here.

Class is about to start back up and it looks like it’s going to be a late night.  At least I’ll have Totino’s and cucumbers waiting for me when I get home.  😉

“You don’t have to see the whole staircase.  Just take the first step.”  ~Martin Luther King Jr.



Day 180 – Playing Catch Up

**(For what it’s worth – I started writing this post Tuesday night and this is the first time I’ve stopped since then.  I’ll do better this week!)**

I know, I know.  I said three times a week and I failed almost immediately.  School and work is demanding much more of my time than I thought it would at this point.  I’m trying (sort of) to get a promotion at work and it’s consuming a lot of my on and off the clock time.  Mainly from training documents, but also because it’s causing my brain to be even more of a whirlwind of activity than it normally is.

I’ve also been trying to spend more time on getting my house organized and training the puppy. I, honestly, don’t see how parents of human children do it.  I feel like I have absolutely no time for anything except work, class, homework, house work, and exercise.  I keep trying to tell myself that it’s only temporary and that school will be over eventually, but sometimes it just seems endless. At least I can say that all that time is time well spent.  At the rate I’m going I’ll graduate with my Associate’s Degree in Information Technology in September (with honors!)

The rest of my spare time is dedicated to weight loss.  I’ve had my ups and downs in this category, but thanks to hard work and dedication I’ve had far more ups than downs (except pounds – where I’ve had more downs 😉 I’ve logged into My Fitness Pal for 203 days in a row and have lost a total of 55.6 pounds since 7/7/13 (for an average loss of 1.99 pounds per week – which is technically over target, which is 1.92 pounds per week to lose 100 pounds in one year!)  I also just completed my first week of Couch to 5K and start the second week today after work  finally made it past the first day of the second week after trying twice last week. I didn’t die – so that’s a start.  It certainly wasn’t easy though…who would have ever thought running would be hard!  😉

I’m definitely feeling the aches and pains of someone that weighs 268 265.8 pounds trying to run, but I’m doing my best to look past that and into the future where I don’t walk with a stoop or limp because I ran for a total of 10 minutes the day before.  I do like how I feel right after a run, but the next day is still pretty rough.  Most of my pain seems to be localized in my back, so perhaps I should look into taping down the twins while I’m at the gym.  😉  I ordered a book that I hope helps with some of my questions – I’ll be sure to post a review as soon as I’m finished with it.  Amazon is currently telling me that I may not receive it for another 2 weeks (that’s what I get for only paying $4 for a used book instead of Amazon’s $15 for a new one).  So, we’ll see how that goes.

Cliff and I changed our weigh in day to Wednesday because I have to eat late on Monday nights (in class until almost 10PM).  I PROMISE will tryfailed to post an official weigh on Wednesday, including an updated progress picture(s).  So here it is today!  One is from this week’s weigh-in and the other is for overall progress.  I’m really starting to see the difference!

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Tickets for my first 5K go on sale the Saturday, February 1st!  I’m sooo excited!  My goal is, of course, to run it without stopping – but I’ve already made up my mind that if I can just finish then I’ll be ecstatic.  I would like to finish it in less than 50 minutes (16:30 mile).  That’s the pace that I kept while finishing up my first week of C25K.  Obviously, I feel like it should be much better than that since I still have 5 months to train, but I definitely don’t want to have a negative first experience simply because I put too much pressure on myself.  I should be down to ~220 pounds by the time of the race (my goal being 211 by 7/7/14) and I’m hoping the weight loss, coupled with the training, will let me finish the race with less than a 15:00 pace, but I don’t even want to say that out loud.  J  I know that many people can walk it faster than that (me included at this point) but that’s not my goal.  My goal is to run it.

Cliff and I are still going strong on our restaurant challenge.  We’ve decided that we’re going to have our post challenge meal at Wild Eggs.  I can’t stop thinking about grits lately and they have some of the best I’ve ever had.  I really, really, really hope that they have the bacon and cream cheese grits as their grits du jour when we go.  I’m also looking forward to our upcoming trip to Nashville.  This is our fifth annual V-Day at Ellendale’s and for the second year in a row we’ll have friends joining us.  Rodney, Sarah, and Ashley are all going to drive down with us and stay the night.  I hear Blackberry wine and Cards Against Humanity calling our names!

Right now I hear dinner calling my name (thank you Jenni-O for making your delicious 180 calorie hamburgers…you’ll never know how much they mean to us).  Time to grub!

(I’m particularly fond of today’s quote.  It really sums up how I’ve been feeling about all my hard work lately)

“Leaders aren’t born, they are made. And they are made just like anything else, through hard work. And that’s the price we’ll have to pay to achieve that goal, or any goal.”  ~ Vincent Thomas


Day 170 – Just Do It!

I have finally started training for my 5K!  I think the real reason it took me so long to get started was because I was absolutely terrified that I wasn’t going to be able to make it through the first day.  I had somehow convinced myself that there was no way that I was ever going to be able to run for 60 seconds and it was pointless to even try.  I had brief thoughts of, “Everyone already thinks that I can’t do this, so it’s not like it would be a surprise if I decided not to do it.”  Then we got to the gym one day and I said, “Fuck it, the worst that can happen is that I can’t do it.  I already think that, so it’s not like it’s going to ruin my day.”

But guess what.

I did it.

I completed the first day…

And then the second day…

And then on my “rest day” I ran/walked a 16:30 mile and then walked another mile and a half directly afterwards for my longest distance to date on the treadmill.

Tomorrow is the last day of Week 1 and I am actually looking forward to it.  After that 16(ish) minute mile, I looked around expecting people to be cheering and a huge banner to drop from the ceiling.  It was one of the most exciting moments of my life and I thought the whole world would be celebrating.

That didn’t happen, in case you were wondering.

However, what did happen was just as awesome. Don’t Stop Believin’ started playing as I hit the one mile mark.  It was one of the most epic musical moments of all time (except, of course, mine and Cliff’s duet of the same song on the way to Mayfield for Christmas).

The other crazy thing that happened this week was the drastic reductions in the twins.  I had to officially say farewell to the DD club.  I wasn’t quite sure how to take it – but overall I think I’m handling it pretty well.  I know it’s for the best, but I really hate saying goodbye to some of my best assets.  😉  I’ve now gone from a 46DD to a 40D bra, a size 26 to a size 20 pant (sometimes a 22 depending on the manufacturer) and a 3X to 1X top (sometimes 2X, just because I like my shirts to be pretty loose).

It’s weird when things like that happen because it’s so impossible difficult to see the changes from day to day.

We’re still on the challenge, and despite numerous obstacles (including being at our favorite restaurant in the city and only drinking water!) we’ve both stayed the course.  I even had a mandatory two hour long lunch meeting at work and watched everyone scarf down fried chicken and pork chops while I sipped a Diet Coke.  To be honest, I’ve actually enjoyed it so far.  I haven’t had a single moment of guilt over a meal since we started and seeing the extra money in the bank is a pretty nice bonus as well!

I’m still having some trouble getting to the blog three times a week and I was in a big time rush to get to work the morning of the weigh in (which has changed to Wednesday because of school) so I wasn’t able to take a picture.  School and work continue to intervene with my good intentions, but I have to pay my mortgage and I have to get a degree, so what can you do.  Sometimes I just have to put my big girl panties on and act like an adult (but sometimes I have Jell-O before dinner, just so I can feel like I’m stickin’ it to the man).

I do have one fairly recent picture – just more proof that I’ve grown obsessed with scarves, big sunglasses, and the color pink.

Oh, and did I mention that I’m officially out of the 270’s?  268.2 as of yesterday.

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“In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can.”  ~Nikos Kazantzakis